Changing4Best
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I have Lyme Disease (you know, the one where you get bitten by a tick and get the bull's eye rash and then get really sick...) and I also have CPTSD from more traditional traumas. I was wondering if a life threatening disease can also be considered to be a trauma as well? This thing is insidious and recurs over and over. Originally, it went into my heart and I almost died from it. In fact, there was a little girl of 8 years old who did die from it while I was being hospitalized for it the first time.
It is incurable. It is caused by a tiny bacterium that is almost as small as a virus, in fact so small that most antibiotics don't really "get" at it well enough to eradicate it entirely (so it keeps coming back). Also, the antibiotics that are used against it have to be administered in high doses for long duration, so this complicates things a lot too. You get this kind of situation where you don't know which is worse, the disease or its so-called remedies. Frankly, both are very traumatic for me.
Also, since my immune system is compromised by this awful scourge, every time I get sick with ANYTHING, I run the risk of this thing recurring along with whatever is ailing me at the time! Generally, just getting sick is a worse ordeal than what it used to be, before this thing happened to me. Recovery takes longer and I feel so washed out, even if I just get a cold.
So, on top of having been molested as a child, and raped as an adult, I have this thing to deal with too. Sometimes, life is just too much for me and I feel like dying. I would not actively try to take my life, but the thought does occur to me when I am sick, because I just feel so half dead.
Does this make any sense?? Do you think this thing qualifies as a trauma too, especially since it never really goes away? My immune system is always at war with it and will be for the rest of my life!
And now, to make matters worse, the Centers For Disease Control have denied that it can be a chronic condition, probably because the insurance companies lobbied for this, as antibiotics are very expensive! There are other branches of our government that still recognize it as possibly being chronic in some cases, but probably as time goes on, the insurance companies with get to them too, SIGH.... which would mean that I could not be treated for it when it recurs, if it does, and it usually does, about every 2 years or so, if not sooner!
It is incurable. It is caused by a tiny bacterium that is almost as small as a virus, in fact so small that most antibiotics don't really "get" at it well enough to eradicate it entirely (so it keeps coming back). Also, the antibiotics that are used against it have to be administered in high doses for long duration, so this complicates things a lot too. You get this kind of situation where you don't know which is worse, the disease or its so-called remedies. Frankly, both are very traumatic for me.
Also, since my immune system is compromised by this awful scourge, every time I get sick with ANYTHING, I run the risk of this thing recurring along with whatever is ailing me at the time! Generally, just getting sick is a worse ordeal than what it used to be, before this thing happened to me. Recovery takes longer and I feel so washed out, even if I just get a cold.
So, on top of having been molested as a child, and raped as an adult, I have this thing to deal with too. Sometimes, life is just too much for me and I feel like dying. I would not actively try to take my life, but the thought does occur to me when I am sick, because I just feel so half dead.
Does this make any sense?? Do you think this thing qualifies as a trauma too, especially since it never really goes away? My immune system is always at war with it and will be for the rest of my life!
And now, to make matters worse, the Centers For Disease Control have denied that it can be a chronic condition, probably because the insurance companies lobbied for this, as antibiotics are very expensive! There are other branches of our government that still recognize it as possibly being chronic in some cases, but probably as time goes on, the insurance companies with get to them too, SIGH.... which would mean that I could not be treated for it when it recurs, if it does, and it usually does, about every 2 years or so, if not sooner!