hope4us
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i know that i dissociate at times, but i don't have dissociative identity disorder, i don't feel like there's more than one person trying to take over me. But i remember a few different times when i was dissociated but it felt a little different than some of the other times. sometimes i just feel completely blank, and mono-tone, and don't show any emotions or have anything to say about anything, just keep zoning out. and than there's been a few other times when it felt a lot different. I was actually more talkative than normal, i laughed a lot, but i felt like i was in a dream, like everything was "less real", almost like i wasn't inside my body, and had no control over my actions, and when i looked in the mirror I thought i looked different. my face seemed more sunk in, and my eyes just looked like i just "wasn't there" , I looked completely "out of it" like i was gone. one of them was actually kinda enjoyable. is this normal to have different "types" of dissociation? is one of them depersonalization, and one of them is derealization? can you have one without the other?