i feel like im always dissociated. i dont have split personalites, but it just seems like my mind is absent almost all the time. im always confused, cant remember anythibgn, feel stupid, i use to have such a drive and motivation for life, but now i just dont take life seriously anymore, lots of times when i see my reflection i feel like im not inside my body, i space out all the time, and everyday just suddenly vanishes, i take forever to get anything done. i use to get so much stuff done, and now it feels like i waste almost everyday getting barely anything accomp;lilshed. right now i just feel like my emotinons are kinda numb and careless. but sometimes i feel like my emotions are a thousand times more intense than normal. ive been hearing whispers all throughout everyday but can never understand what its saying. i was abused and have been through way too much stress. am i stuck in dissocaiation? whats going on?