I've been reading around here today and this section just makes me wonder... can a medical physical trauma on the body as an infant impact your development and contribute to some kind of PTSD responses? I was very premature, had very invasive surgeries from 2 days old, in the hospital almost until I was a year, then another major surgery around 1, multiple bouts of pneumonia and touch and go moments. There were and still are ongoing medical issues I've struggled with since then with 5 more related surgeries, but I was lucky compared to other premature babies. Luckily I don't remember any of that. I'm not afraid of doctors and I'm just like, "yep been here done that..." So much so that doctors and nurses look at me funny that I knowk medical lingo, want to watch procedures, etc. I know it impacted the relationship with my mother, our inability to bond, and her constant need to control every aspect of my life (food, water, medication, etc). There are questions between family members about inconsistent information provided to them during that time in my life. I've questioned a few things, but my mother would not provide an answer. I obtained the medical files she kept meticulously, but there are gaps the first few days in the hospital, things marked out, etc during the time I question things happening and what the surgeries were for. Unfortunately I tried to get copies directly from the hospital, but it was too late and the files were already destroyed. Can the body remember situations from early medical experiences that can be long lasting, even if mentally you could not recall? I'm just honestly curious about that kind of stored body memory (not a physical flashback).