I'm trying to learn some things and get certifications for my resume. Both times I've tried to start these cert classes, I just start sobbing because I feel like I'm so bad at the things I'm trying to learn (when I have no experience/self taught experience in them) I give up and just cry. The ways I've tried learning them I've hated, too. I end up feeling so depressed I don't want to get out of bed. I beat myself up that I'm never going to get a job because I'm not actually good at any of these things. I don't even know if I like them but I need a job, so. I don't know if it's my brain saying that I shouldn't do this because I don't like it as a job or if it's because I just think I'm not good enough. I know there's tons of things I'm good at but this just....isn't objectively one of them and I don't really care about it. I don't know what to do instead. I feel like I'm never going to get a job and I need one by August for my rental application. I'm applying everywhere but I guess my applications aren't good enough so I was going to try to get these certifications. But idk if I even want jobs in these things.