Someone please please help me to articulate what is happening to me in therapy I cannot open up totally to my therapist one week I open up and other week I shut down again I really don't understand. I know I've got lots of issues going on stuff that I'm really scared to talk about and T said I wonder off in therapy as soon as I get to a point where l can be open. l pulled back and I go back into my head again. I am really struggling she is really concerned and l dont know if I'm making progress I don't feel like I am, I feel frustrated and abusive towards myself because I cannot get the words to come out of my throat and I just hate to think that I have to talk about my abuse. I've never talked about it and all of a sudden it becoming so real to me and I don't like it any advice are there please help.