I am not sure where else to post this ( as I don’t w some of my other threads lol) but I just sorta wanted to check in. I know I haven’t been really active the past few weeks. I’ve kinda isolated myself and have been distracting myself w mind numbing tasks or games. I still have some medical stuff coming up next week that I have to address to see if I’m going to need further treatment for my work injury and I realized in a few weeks it’ll be almost a year since I’ve been employed. Been having pain when I breathe and my arm goes numb so they think some nerves are being compressed somewhere but we will see Monday I hope.
I have been semi dealing w the grief of my aunt’s passing and then a few days ago it was the anniversary of my mom’s death, she passed when I was 22.
It’s been tough, there’s days I feel absolutely nothing, parts of days I feel angry and days I feel depressed and days I just can’t identify emotions. I realized too I have been subconsciously turning away from my supports like this group and therapist and I need to not do that before I get stuck in a depression spiral which...they suck I don’t recommend.
Anyways, thanks to everyone who has been here and reads and just gives me a safe environment to talk about things. I’m still here, just working my way through crap like everyone else.
I have been semi dealing w the grief of my aunt’s passing and then a few days ago it was the anniversary of my mom’s death, she passed when I was 22.
It’s been tough, there’s days I feel absolutely nothing, parts of days I feel angry and days I feel depressed and days I just can’t identify emotions. I realized too I have been subconsciously turning away from my supports like this group and therapist and I need to not do that before I get stuck in a depression spiral which...they suck I don’t recommend.
Anyways, thanks to everyone who has been here and reads and just gives me a safe environment to talk about things. I’m still here, just working my way through crap like everyone else.