Hey Guys,
My name is Sarah and I'm 28 years and have been suffering from PTSD for about 20 years, I was diagnosed after I had to drop out of college because I couldn't handle it. Now after years of healing, I start back at college tomorrow. I'm terrified. When I was at my worst, I couldn't think, I couldn't process anything. I've gotten so much better in the seven years since I dropped out, but I find I keep doubting myself.
I've been through a lot of terrible experiences but I've found the hardest part of everything is learning to be happy and thrive. It is hard for me to be optimistic and believe in myself. But I don't want to be scared anymore. I've gotten myself to a point where people don't see me as being "mentally ill" but as someone who is boring and just doesn't do much. While this is a huge step from where I was, its hard that people can't see where I was and how much progress I've made.
This is my first step. It is a huge step for me (I've rewritten this about 20 times) and I'll have to force myself not to delete it. I really look forward to this experience and hope I stick to it :)
My name is Sarah and I'm 28 years and have been suffering from PTSD for about 20 years, I was diagnosed after I had to drop out of college because I couldn't handle it. Now after years of healing, I start back at college tomorrow. I'm terrified. When I was at my worst, I couldn't think, I couldn't process anything. I've gotten so much better in the seven years since I dropped out, but I find I keep doubting myself.
I've been through a lot of terrible experiences but I've found the hardest part of everything is learning to be happy and thrive. It is hard for me to be optimistic and believe in myself. But I don't want to be scared anymore. I've gotten myself to a point where people don't see me as being "mentally ill" but as someone who is boring and just doesn't do much. While this is a huge step from where I was, its hard that people can't see where I was and how much progress I've made.
This is my first step. It is a huge step for me (I've rewritten this about 20 times) and I'll have to force myself not to delete it. I really look forward to this experience and hope I stick to it :)