Okay so I’ve had a GREAT deal of trauma in my childhood with losing almost all of my family members by the age of 13 including parents, I was abused (beat) and molested for years and I’ve just now recently got a therapist in hopes to help me resolve issues. My biggest issues for me is commitment. I guess I don’t like getting close to people and I could see the root of the issue (being so many deaths in my family) but I’m working on trying to resolve and get closer to people. This has happened every single time that I’ve talked to someone or gotten close, I convince myself I don’t like them anymore and ghost them. I’m not comfortable with being intimate with someone unless I’m drunk. What are some ways to help with this? Or cope? I want to be able to feel comfortable with someone sober.