Just a month ago on New Years day I walked out on my fiance. It was like I had no control over myself. I snapped "Im done" and started to leave. I knew I needed to calm down but I was stubborn and needed some space. I potsed a couple of years ago about my relationship with her and it has been stable but still not free, just a little tense all the time.
She took me into her house and treated me like family. Her son liked me and her mom started too. She is generous and nurturing unlike anyone I had known before. She knew I suffered from mental issues and childhood trauma but after leaving this time she had a enough. She has kicked me a couple of times, one over making too much noise one night so the abandoning does go back and forth but I I could see this time when I left a switch went off.
I think the pressure of facing my commitment issues with a marriage just became to overwhelming but overtime she became family and I don't walk away from family. I can never fully commit and then I neglect them til they leave and I wallow in regret. Is this normal for abandonment issues to ruin relationships when they reach the next level of commitment?
She took me into her house and treated me like family. Her son liked me and her mom started too. She is generous and nurturing unlike anyone I had known before. She knew I suffered from mental issues and childhood trauma but after leaving this time she had a enough. She has kicked me a couple of times, one over making too much noise one night so the abandoning does go back and forth but I I could see this time when I left a switch went off.
I think the pressure of facing my commitment issues with a marriage just became to overwhelming but overtime she became family and I don't walk away from family. I can never fully commit and then I neglect them til they leave and I wallow in regret. Is this normal for abandonment issues to ruin relationships when they reach the next level of commitment?