Sooo. My biological Father passed away February 10th of colon cancer. He did not raise me. I had an occasional relationship with him. We did find closure in the last few years. He hated the trauma I endured. He felt responsible since he wasn't there in my life to rescue me from it. I forgave him. I allowed him a relationship with my kids...his grandkids. They saw him about once a month before he got sick. I had to help plan his arrangements . . so now I am grieving which I never thought I would do. Family members act like I should treat it as no big deal... After all not much has changed....except now both of my parents are gone. I am having all these thoughts, emotions, i don't know how to process. My depression has returned. I do not understand what is going on with me. A friend invited me to a griefshare support group..but I am reluctant to go. Aren't those for people who were "close"...??? My Mom passed May 05, My firstborn daughter June 06, a fantastic childhood friend March 2016, two grandma's, one grandpa.....I am 35. I have ptsd from childhood trauma crap, mental illness runs in my family. I have two kiddos to take care of...they keep me going. I love them so much. . . but my depression has me feeling exhausted. . . or is this just grief? I don't even understand why I am bothered.