Confused and depressed

[Punky143]

I've felt different in the last couple of weeks. I will point out that I have "parts" DID and it's not common for them to all feel eerily similar.
Snippet flashbacks occur, some of my difficult parts blurted a secret out during session and was not planned. I just feel like I have no energy, no real friends, disgusting, little to no appetite, embarrassed, ashamed, and wondering more often what the other side looks like.

 

[Friday]

some of my difficult parts blurted a secret out during session and was not planned.

No parts here, but I’ve done that, saying something I don’t mean to say… and getting a CRUSHING response (hello massive symptom spike!) that lasts for days/weeks.

It’s always temporary. But always brutal.

Looking at it as a symptom spike? Is one of the things that helps me. Oh. This. Again. Faaaaaawk.

Okay! How can I start shifting gears OUT of this headspace / start moderating symptoms downward?