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I’m not sure where to post this? So please move if necessary.
I am really embarrassed and ashamed to talk about this part of me, if it is a part??
I have experienced multiple sexual abuse including molestation by family members and rape by 2 people known to me.
I’ve recently become very aware, confused and disgusted by my own body.
When I see things on TV that have happened to me, things like what I’ve said above, my mind and most of my body clams up and wants to get away from it and I kind of freeze as I did for all of my past experiences but I often have an arousal response at the same time and I feel so disgusted by it and sick and I want to hurt myself for having that response.
What’s wrong with me?
I am really embarrassed and ashamed to talk about this part of me, if it is a part??
I have experienced multiple sexual abuse including molestation by family members and rape by 2 people known to me.
I’ve recently become very aware, confused and disgusted by my own body.
When I see things on TV that have happened to me, things like what I’ve said above, my mind and most of my body clams up and wants to get away from it and I kind of freeze as I did for all of my past experiences but I often have an arousal response at the same time and I feel so disgusted by it and sick and I want to hurt myself for having that response.
What’s wrong with me?