So I just had a very confusing appointment..I told my T that today wasn't a good day for me..anxiety,unfocused etc...she tells me to find a class or something to schedule as a routine..she says perhaps I have to much unstructured time...well hell I don't know from one day to the next if I'll have my self together enough to go out in public!!! and I'm supposed to let these feelings come up and FEEL them...well they rear their ugly head at the craziest times!! I just want to shut down have a few drinks and zone out with netflix..this is why I don't like people..everyone pushes you away eventually..better not to hope someone will listen and actually care...does this ever happen to anyone else?