I have been diagnosed with depression and anxiety from early on and now recently told I have cptsd. I have always had trouble with memory and now think it is because of the trauma. I don’t have any vivid memories of the traumas either...just fragments...but from what I’ve read the body keeps the score. I always froze during trauma, and after all the big and little traumas, i think i became hyper vigilant ...like my stress response got stuck on the on position.