I am Natalie. My childhood was pretty horrific. Essentially, I experienced all the traumas one could imagine with the exception of living in a literal war zone, being sold into sex trafficking, regularly beaten, or raised in a cage. I left home as soon as I could, and then life got worse. Somehow, I managed to pull myself out of the gutter and into college where I eventually got a PhD and became a professor. I study war, disasters, and social chaos - go figure. I am very interested in trauma, professionally speaking and am considering a career change with a focus on PTSD and attachment. My own attachment style is Dismissive Avoidant, if you are into that sort of thing. I went no contact with my parents in Feb. 2021. I have no doubt they blame me for everything, as they always have, me being the scapegoat.