Hi Everyone. My given name is Susan. I am in the process of reading Pete Walker's Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving. It is from his book I found this site. I'm 50 years young and had a traumatic health event about this time last year that led me into a flashback and subsequent suicidal spiral. I have been in and out of therapy my whole adult life and have been diagnosed with myriad things, all of which never produced a lasting way to manage symptoms. It wasn't until I was in IOP earlier this year that I learned I have undiagnosed trauma/complex PTSD from many years of childhood sexual, verbal, physical abuse and neglect. I am thankful to finally have a diagnosis that feels relatable. I have spent many years trying to self-medicate with food and alcohol (have 19 years sober now but still sugar binge) and am hopeful that new therapy targeting CPTSD will provide some relief/results. Thank you for being here; I look forward to reading your stories and am certain some will resonate with me and help me to feel like I'm not alone. God Bless you on your healing journey!