torturedsoul4
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Yep. I just logged in, searched a key term and your post calls out to me. I've been married for 15 years now. Our sex life has never been great even in our peak years. She is just like your husband & I'm CONSTANTLY thinking about sex with other women now. I even logged into an adult dating site for some erotic chat and now I feel filthy about it..I'm lostI have a cycle. Something stressful happens and triggers me. Then I start having flashbacks and nightmares of CSA. Also have a relapse of ED and SH and then I become extremely hyper sexual. I crave very rough, dark sex. I feel so gross and ashamed.
Which is the problem-
My husband a) has a low sex drive and constantly turns me down and b) won’t participate in the type of sex I desire. I feel disgusting for my desires and my husband seems to be disgusted by them also. I don’t know what to do. It just makes me feel very angry with myself, with him. Makes me feel very alone.
Anyone else have similar issues?