so, here we go. i remember going over to my older cousin’s (she was probably in her early teens) house when i was about 8 or 9– alone. Whenever i would wanna play video games, she always suggested something sexual and always touched me in bad places. I didnt know how to feel. I always did it because i was afraid she’d be upset if i said no. after that, i didnt feel anything— but now i do. i’m 14 now and i feel like crap. anything that has to with rape and or csa triggers me. like, i genuinely feel a pit in my stomach and feel like crying. this happened today when i was reading “i know why the caged bird sings”.
i feel suicidal and worthless now that i remember it. im scared to go to my mom or any family member about it. i’ve only told one friend i trust. can somebody help or give advice??
i feel suicidal and worthless now that i remember it. im scared to go to my mom or any family member about it. i’ve only told one friend i trust. can somebody help or give advice??