Dad always wants to see me


My dad, used to be super controlling and he himself is on the spectrum, always asks via text or email to see me, wanting me to visit.

He thinks he is being clever by being non pushy. for a second then he'll ask again in a few months.

I still get short of breath, worried about boundaries.

I LOSE myself when I am around it. Completely.

How to purge this as much as it can be purged?

I believe in HOPE and PEACE,.....SOMEHOW

Thinking this would. be easier. if I had a supportive partner, but just me.