Tonight I had a complete breakdown uncontrollable weeping and shaking. My lovely neighbors decided to set off fireworks, which triggered a massive meltdown. Not only am I autistic, I have complex PTSD so not a good combination. Right now I feel like I don't belong in a world like this. Not only has it gone mad, all the familiar parameters seem to have melted away and people are doing whatever the hell they please. I can't stop shivering and am trying not to slide into the dangerous suicidal thoughts right now. So discouraged, it is really hard to go on.