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I try to be civil. I don't do bad things to people , steal , or anything like that. The unchecked anger gives me violent ideations. I just want to execute random people SS style. I want chew someone's eyes out of their face and eat them for lunch. I want to cut off heads and boil them in acid. The last time this came over me was at work. I kept visualizing taking a steak knife and murdering every person that works in that restaurant. I know I'm not a bad person, I don't know why I want to inflict pain and damage. In the past I would ground from these thoughts by burning myself with cigarettes. I hope I never loose my control that way.