whiteraven
MyPTSD Pro
I haven't been awake 30 minutes, and I am having intense anxiety about death--or more specifically, about dying. About being alone, having an acute episode of something, and dying before I can get to help. But mostly, about dying and leaving my cats behind. Or...becoming so ill that I can't take care of them anymore.
I live alone. I have a phone I keep nearby (well, usually--After this, always). If something happens to me, the cats have a place to go--the place where I adopted them ALWAYS takes pets back when the person can no long care for them.
That's not helping right now. I think about getting critically ill, losing them, then getting better and them not being here. I can't even bear the thought of that.
I don't know how to ease any of the fears. And, even though they are always present, they are so much worse this morning. No idea why.
I live alone. I have a phone I keep nearby (well, usually--After this, always). If something happens to me, the cats have a place to go--the place where I adopted them ALWAYS takes pets back when the person can no long care for them.
That's not helping right now. I think about getting critically ill, losing them, then getting better and them not being here. I can't even bear the thought of that.
I don't know how to ease any of the fears. And, even though they are always present, they are so much worse this morning. No idea why.