BlueWeepingRose
Confident
This is a symptom that I've been feeling for a very long time now. Depressed and isolating myself from the outside world. Because I feel like I can't trust anyone anymore, I have no idea who to trust or know who's okay to talk too. Survivor of Domestic Violence and he did so much to me, that I'm scared to put myself out there again. Before I was never like this, but now I'm paranoid, and fearful and depressed. Apart of me wants to let people into my life again. When another part of me just wants to be alone, due to fear of being abused again. My therapist is helping me with boundaries, since I was never good at that to begin with. Told me what I'm feeling is completely normal, but sometimes it gets so lonely for me. A lot of my friends stopped speaking to me due to PTSD and not a lot of them understand and it's very embarassing to tell them about everything I been through. Don't want to put my stress on them or upset them, because it's pretty traumatic. The one thing she told me to do was walk around my neighborhood, so I'm going to try to do this. Just so I can put myself out there.