I’ve been feeling extremely depressed lately. My meds work, it’s just a lot of external things. Nothing seems to be going right and I’m having difficulty focusing on the positive. I could list all of the things that have happened but I won’t. Just know that it’s like one thing after the other down to the point where I’m starting to pick myself apart and become very bitter. I can’t seem to smile anymore. All I want to do is eat cookies and sleep. I think about self harm. I feel like there’s no one to talk to. It feels like I’m screaming underwater but there’s no one there to help. Maybe I’m too dependent on other people and need to do this on my own, except that I don’t know how. Any kind words or suggestions would help. Some of the external things are bringing up old trauma too. I could sit at home all day and do nothing and something could still go wrong. Please help.