Thanks for your input! I've been a little more comfortable with the idea of EMDR lately, but yeah, it's still really scary to consider. I'm in my late 20s right now and exactly what you described is why I'm trying to start trying now vs avoiding it (for me avoiding, different for everyone I think). Was there anything specific that helped you feel safe? I'm mostly worried about not being able to be open enough with what I'm experiencing, keeping things to myself, etc. Was there anything that really shocked you about the process that you weren't expecting?I get it, emdr is scary, I know everyone here can run a talk therapy session on their own. I wish i could have had emdr at 20 instead of 57. At 20 I was told to pack that trauma away and move on. My mother's illness and death triggered more than I bargained for. I reached a point that the trauma was too much for me to handle alone. I looked for someone who specializes in trauma. Complex PTSD - 20 years of physical abuse and neglect, 57 years of emotional and mental abuse. I jumped in both feet, I did take a couple of months to feel safe. It is hard, really hard, but I can drop something and not feel as if I'm stupid and worthless. I am no longer a victim. It usually takes me 2-3 days after an emdr session to fully process, rest, and recover. I have a ways to go- but I want to feel better and I can feel and see the changes in the way I handle triggers. I don't think of it as buying in but it does take work, support, and commitment. Good luck fellow survivors.