I feel it is time for me to start a diary. There's a lot that I need to deal with now. One of the most important things is to cut contact with someone who abused me when I was a child. My therapist said what I should do is send them a text or email and just say that I don't want anymore contact with them. Easy, right? Right. So. Why haven't I done it yet? It's been 2 weeks since my therapist told me how to do it. I think fear is stopping me. I do worry what my abusers reaction will be. They've been texting and emailing and calling quite persistently recently. I have not answered at all for about a week now. Seems the longer they get ignored, the more paranoid they become. And they desire to keep control of me. But they dug their own grave. None of it is my fault. I am going to do it soon.