Rose White
MyPTSD Pro
I realize that my sadness is usually sparked from fear. Fear of being alone, fear of being inappropriate, fear of being stuck, etc. When I feel afraid then I feel sad. I often don’t know how to cope so it turns to anger which is dealt with by internalizing.
I now recognize the need for better boundaries with myself and investing in myself.
But a question arose within me. I can attempt to stay with myself for the sadness, but the sadness is not equivalent to the fear, is it? By that I mean, people experience sadness without fear, right?
So then I’m trying to get myself to stay present with my sadness, but ultimately I will need to stay present with my fear. The anger is displacing the sadness and the sadness is displacing the fear. I’m working on staying present for the sadness because I learned that the sadness came from the fear. But now I’m curious if the sadness is distinct from the fear, or blended with it.
I know you can’t tell me what I’m feeling, but I wonder if you experience these emotions as blending together or following each other or something else. I wonder if you experience them primarily as distinct or blended. I wonder if how you experience them has changed as you recover.
I now recognize the need for better boundaries with myself and investing in myself.
But a question arose within me. I can attempt to stay with myself for the sadness, but the sadness is not equivalent to the fear, is it? By that I mean, people experience sadness without fear, right?
So then I’m trying to get myself to stay present with my sadness, but ultimately I will need to stay present with my fear. The anger is displacing the sadness and the sadness is displacing the fear. I’m working on staying present for the sadness because I learned that the sadness came from the fear. But now I’m curious if the sadness is distinct from the fear, or blended with it.
I know you can’t tell me what I’m feeling, but I wonder if you experience these emotions as blending together or following each other or something else. I wonder if you experience them primarily as distinct or blended. I wonder if how you experience them has changed as you recover.