littlestars
Confident
All of a sudden I can’t stand my boyfriend’s grandma. I love her, but she gets on my nerves even if I just think about her. She assumes my boyfriend is on drugs and then repeatedly asks me about it. I know she is concerned, but you have to draw the line somewhere. When I tell her the truth she says “don’t lie to me”. It’s annoying. I try my best to cut her some slack because she is old and slowly losing her sensibilities. It’s just so hard because I’m taking everything at face value. It angers me so much that it triggers flashbacks and anxiety attacks. I don’t know what to do. I feel like such a jerk for being annoyed with her. I feel bad. But I don’t like it when people ask me about my boyfriend’s drug use. That is his past, not the present. His mother will do that too. I get annoyed with her because every time she suspects something I have an hour to hour and a half phone conversation with her. It sucks. I have stuff to do but can’t be rude. It isn’t fair that I am put in this position, it angers me on so many levels. I don’t like feeling angry because I lose control and I don’t need that to happen. I’m afraid that I’ll hurt someone verbally or break something.
