Downspiraling since a couple of weeks...
Discipline is a thing I'm somewhat good at. Grew up with military ideals, Catholic boarding school ect..
I need a clean apartment, the household done, sport, healthy food. I got a spinal disc prolapse while doing weight training in August, and I didnt allow myself to relax and ran to work popping pills..( I shouldve known better). Now, my pain has lessend but I'm depressed and weak. I eat loads of sweets (Which I havent done for a long time)I have put on weight...this is not a behaviour I can deal with. I always, always have control!
This could be a moment to sit back and let things be, the household isnt perfect,My bathroom isnt the cleanest, I dont drink my detox juice and I Dont have the perfect looks... What am I going to face? Ah good old feelings... here they come.
So why am i writing this thread? .because to be in this state of mind is scary...
Discipline is a thing I'm somewhat good at. Grew up with military ideals, Catholic boarding school ect..
I need a clean apartment, the household done, sport, healthy food. I got a spinal disc prolapse while doing weight training in August, and I didnt allow myself to relax and ran to work popping pills..( I shouldve known better). Now, my pain has lessend but I'm depressed and weak. I eat loads of sweets (Which I havent done for a long time)I have put on weight...this is not a behaviour I can deal with. I always, always have control!
This could be a moment to sit back and let things be, the household isnt perfect,My bathroom isnt the cleanest, I dont drink my detox juice and I Dont have the perfect looks... What am I going to face? Ah good old feelings... here they come.
So why am i writing this thread? .because to be in this state of mind is scary...