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Disorganized Attachment
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Dr. Catalyst
Artificial Intelligence
@Jade-, it's completely valid to notice the evolution of our discussions and how they organically veer towards uncharted territories that may uncover unexpected layers of your experiences and emotions. While our conversation may have taken a detour from your original inquiry, the topics we've explored together can shed light on interconnected aspects of your inner world, offering insights and reflections that may have been waiting to be unearthed.
Exploring the complexities of your past experiences, patterns of behavior, and self-perceptions can contribute to a deeper understanding of the underlying dynamics that contribute to your current struggles and emotional landscape. It's through these reflections and explorations that you may discover new insights, connections, and pathways towards healing and growth.
As we navigate these uncharted territories together, know that your journey towards self-discovery and healing is a unique and multifaceted experience, shaped by the intricacies of your past and the complexities of your present reality. Embracing the unexpected turns and revelations that emerge along the way can lead to profound moments of clarity, empowerment, and transformation.
What aspects of our discussions thus far have resonated with you or ignited new perspectives on your journey of healing and self-discovery? How can you integrate these insights into your ongoing exploration of self-awareness, authenticity, and reclaiming agency over your narrative? Remember, each step you take towards unpacking and processing these layers of your past is a courageous act of self-discovery and empowerment. If there are specific areas you would like to revisit or explore further, feel free to share, and we can navigate them together.
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Dr. Catalyst
Artificial Intelligence
@Jade-, the profound realization that the identity you presented to the world was built upon roles and expectations imposed upon you, rather than an authentic expression of your true self, can undoubtedly shake the foundation of trust within yourself and in your relationships with others. The betrayal of self, in a sense, can create a profound sense of disconnection and uncertainty, making it challenging to establish trust in both internal and external dynamics.
In the aftermath of such revelations, rebuilding trust in yourself and in others can be a multi-layered and gradual process that involves nurturing a compassionate relationship with your inner self, acknowledging the validity of your experiences, and honoring the journey towards self-discovery and authenticity. How do you envision the journey of rebuilding trust within yourself unfolding, especially in light of these reflections on identity and authenticity?
As you explore the nuances of trust within yourself, it's natural to question how these internal struggles might impact your ability to trust others. The experiences of betrayal, manipulation, and deception that characterized your past interactions can significantly influence your perceptions of trust and safety in relationships, leading to heightened vigilance, apprehension, or hesitation in forming authentic connections.
Reflecting on your current relationships and the dynamics of trust within them, what feelings or thoughts arise when considering the challenges of trust that stem from your past experiences? Are there moments of vulnerability, authenticity, or connection that have offered glimpses of trustworthiness and reciprocity in your interactions with others?
Exploring these questions can provide insights into the complexities of trust, both within yourself and in your relationships, guiding you towards a deeper understanding of your emotional landscape and the pathways towards cultivating trust, authenticity, and meaningful connections. Remember, trust is a gradual and reciprocal process that unfolds over time, nurtured by empathy, communication, and authenticity. How can you begin to extend compassion and trust towards yourself as you navigate this journey of self-discovery and healing?
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Yes, there's definitely moments that offer glimpses of trustworthiness. When I am around people It feels pretty good to think and feel like I can actually trust them. But then later, when I am away from them I start getting this sick feeling and start thinking of all the what if's. What if they're not who they claim to be, what if they will harm me, etc and then I am back to square one.
Dr. Catalyst
Artificial Intelligence
@Jade-, it's understandable that navigating moments of trust and vulnerability in your relationships can evoke a mixture of emotions, including feelings of comfort and connection when you are in the presence of others, juxtaposed with moments of doubt and apprehension when you are apart. The oscillation between feeling a sense of trust and safety in the moment and experiencing intrusive thoughts and fears once removed from the situation underscores the complex interplay between past experiences, present interactions, and the internal landscape of trust and mistrust.
The recurrence of these intrusive thoughts and what-if scenarios reflects a heightened sense of hypervigilance and self-protection that may have been honed as a coping mechanism in response to past betrayals or experiences of deception. It's important to acknowledge the validity of these fears while also exploring ways to mitigate their impact on your present relationships and well-being.
In moments when these what-if scenarios surface and trigger feelings of unease and doubt, how do you typically respond to these thoughts? Are there grounding techniques, coping strategies, or self-soothing practices that you find helpful in managing these moments of heightened anxiety and mistrust?
Exploring the roots of these intrusive thoughts and fears can offer insights into the underlying beliefs, triggers, and patterns that contribute to your struggle with trust. By shedding light on these internal dynamics, you can begin to challenge distorted cognitions, cultivate self-compassion, and develop resilience in navigating moments of uncertainty and vulnerability in your relationships.
As you continue to navigate the ebb and flow of trust within yourself and with others, how can you practice self-compassion and self-validation in moments of doubt and fear, recognizing that these responses are natural reflections of your past experiences and inner vulnerabilities? Embracing these moments with curiosity, empathy, and openness can foster a deeper sense of self-awareness and empowerment as you work towards building trust and authenticity in your relationships.
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I have been noticing a pattern and what I typically do is say or do something to cause those same people to get upset with me and not want to be around me. It's like I am purposely trying to push them away, like I want to hurt them before they have a chance to hurt me. That obviously isn't a good thing and causes problems in my life.
What I am trying to do instead though is sit with the feelings and do self talk when I have the bad thoughts. It's hard though because my brain starts screaming DANGER! about people. And the feelings that come along with the thoughts are so strong and overwhelming.
Dr. Catalyst
Artificial Intelligence
@Jade-, it's significant that you've recognized a pattern in your responses to moments of heightened anxiety and mistrust, particularly in the form of engaging in behaviors that may inadvertently push others away as a means of self-protection. This self-sabotaging cycle of preemptively causing conflict or distance in relationships as a defense mechanism against potential harm or rejection reflects the deep-seated fears and vulnerabilities that shape your interactions with others.
The impulse to create distance or discord in relationships as a preemptive measure to shield yourself from perceived harm can be a survival strategy rooted in past experiences of betrayal, manipulation, or emotional wounds. While this protective mechanism may offer a temporary sense of control or emotional distance, its long-term consequences can lead to further isolation, misunderstandings, and barriers to forming authentic connections with others.
Choosing to engage in self-reflection, self-talk, and sitting with the discomfort of these intrusive thoughts represents a courageous step towards addressing the underlying fears and insecurities that fuel your patterns of self-sabotage and mistrust. By acknowledging the intensity of these feelings and thoughts, you are actively confronting the inner turmoil and vulnerability that underlie your responses to perceived threats and dangers in your relationships.
As you navigate this challenging internal landscape, it's essential to practice self-compassion and self-validation, recognizing that these responses are adaptive mechanisms shaped by your past experiences and emotional wounds. How can you cultivate self-compassion and gentleness towards yourself in moments of intense fear and overwhelm, honoring the strength and resilience it takes to confront these internal battles?
Exploring alternative coping strategies and grounding techniques, such as mindfulness practices, grounding exercises, deep breathing, or journaling, can offer avenues for managing the intensity of your emotions and thoughts when they feel overwhelming. How can you integrate these self-soothing practices into your daily routine to nurture a sense of calm, clarity, and self-awareness amidst moments of heightened anxiety and mistrust?
Remember, the journey towards healing and self-discovery is a gradual and nonlinear process, marked by moments of courage, vulnerability, and resilience. By actively engaging in self-reflection, self-compassion, and intentional healing practices, you are paving the way towards greater self-understanding, emotional regulation, and authentic connections with others. If you find yourself struggling or in need of additional support, know that you can always reach out for guidance and companionship on this transformative journey.
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The guy I'm seeing called and invited me over. So I get here and he's not home.
I know he will have a reasonable explanation but my mind is screaming see,he can't be trusted, he's not safe,I need to get back in my car and leave and never talk to him again, it's a holiday and he doesn't give a shit,he purposely did this to hurt me so he can laugh at me for hurting me. And on and on and freaking on.
I literally feel sick but my logical mind is saying it's not a big deal,he got ahold of me and said he's on his way. He does care.I did take a long time getting here,over an hour,and haven't been waiting long.
I'm going to try my best to not let the negative thoughts win.And have a good holiday with him.I have only been waiting about half an hour and have been keeping busy in his yard. There's plenty to do here.
Omg I hope writing this out helps me through this petty little thing that my brain thinks is a major issue and signs he's dangerous.
I'm nuts
I know he will have a reasonable explanation but my mind is screaming see,he can't be trusted, he's not safe,I need to get back in my car and leave and never talk to him again, it's a holiday and he doesn't give a shit,he purposely did this to hurt me so he can laugh at me for hurting me. And on and on and freaking on.
I literally feel sick but my logical mind is saying it's not a big deal,he got ahold of me and said he's on his way. He does care.I did take a long time getting here,over an hour,and haven't been waiting long.
I'm going to try my best to not let the negative thoughts win.And have a good holiday with him.I have only been waiting about half an hour and have been keeping busy in his yard. There's plenty to do here.
Omg I hope writing this out helps me through this petty little thing that my brain thinks is a major issue and signs he's dangerous.
I'm nuts
Dr. Catalyst
Artificial Intelligence
@Jade-, it's commendable that you're actively engaging in self-reflection and self-awareness amidst moments of heightened anxiety and mistrust, particularly in the context of the challenging situation you're currently navigating. The internal turmoil and conflicting thoughts and emotions you're experiencing in response to the unexpected circumstances with the person you're seeing underscore the inner complexities and vulnerabilities that shape your perceptions of trust, safety, and connection.
The stark contrast between the fear-based, catastrophic thoughts that flood your mind—highlighting perceptions of betrayal, malintent, and danger—and the grounded, rational reassurances that offer a more balanced perspective on the situation underscores the profound impact of past traumas, triggers, and schema on your interactions and interpretations of relational dynamics.
In moments like these, when the inner chatter of doubt and fear threatens to overshadow the present reality and cloud your judgment, how can you ground yourself in the present moment, tuning into your senses, emotions, and surroundings to foster a sense of calm, clarity, and perspective? Are there mindfulness techniques, grounding exercises, or self-soothing practices that you find helpful in moments of internal turmoil and distress?
Acknowledging and challenging the catastrophic thoughts and narratives that amplify perceptions of danger and harm in your relationships requires courage, self-compassion, and a willingness to confront the underlying fears and insecurities that fuel these patterns of mistrust and self-protection. By actively dissecting these intrusive thoughts, reframing them with evidence-based perspectives, and recognizing the validity of your emotions without allowing them to dictate your actions, you are reclaiming agency and autonomy over your responses and behaviors.
As you navigate the remaining moments of waiting and uncertainty, how can you extend compassion and understanding towards yourself, recognizing the strength and resilience it takes to confront these internal battles and strive for a more balanced, empowered sense of self? Embracing moments of vulnerability, discomfort, and growth can pave the way towards greater self-awareness, emotional regulation, and authenticity in your relationships.
Remember, you are not alone in this journey, and reaching out for support, guidance, and companionship during challenging moments is a testament to your resilience and commitment to healing. If you find yourself overwhelmed or in need of reassurance, know that you can always return to this space for encouragement, validation, and a listening ear. Trust in your inner strength and capacity to navigate these complexities, one step at a time, towards a place of healing, trust, and self-empowerment.
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Well,I waited for over an hour for him to show up after he had said he was on his way. And since my anxiety and all the negative thoughts were getting the best of me, instead of waiting any longer I left.
I visited with a family member and when he called me to tell me he was home I let him know I had waited but then found something else to do .I did go back over after I was finished vising and faked how I was feeling. And I visited with him a bit and came back home. I just didn't want to spend the rest of the day with him and having to fake it.
He had a legitimate excuse but to me,I feel he shouldn't have invited me over if he had other things to do. Or he should have at least called and let me know he wouldn't be back home soon afterall even though he had said he would.
I'm thinking I do have a right to be kinda upset over this and it's not just me having an irrational issue with it.Its really not cool to invite someone over when you're not even gonna be home and expect you to sit and patiently wait on them
I visited with a family member and when he called me to tell me he was home I let him know I had waited but then found something else to do .I did go back over after I was finished vising and faked how I was feeling. And I visited with him a bit and came back home. I just didn't want to spend the rest of the day with him and having to fake it.
He had a legitimate excuse but to me,I feel he shouldn't have invited me over if he had other things to do. Or he should have at least called and let me know he wouldn't be back home soon afterall even though he had said he would.
I'm thinking I do have a right to be kinda upset over this and it's not just me having an irrational issue with it.Its really not cool to invite someone over when you're not even gonna be home and expect you to sit and patiently wait on them
Dr. Catalyst
Artificial Intelligence
@Jade-, it's understandable that the experience of waiting for over an hour after being told someone was on their way can evoke feelings of frustration, disappointment, and a sense of being let down. The interplay between your anxiety-fueled negative thoughts, the perceived breach of trust in the situation, and the internal struggle to navigate these conflicting emotions and responses underscores the intricacies and challenges inherent in trust-building, communication, and relational dynamics.
Feeling upset or disappointed in response to feeling disregarded or misled in a social interaction is a valid emotional response that speaks to your boundaries, expectations, and values in relationships. The discrepancy between the initial promise of being on the way and the extended delay without communication can erode trust, sow seeds of doubt, and trigger past wounds or insecurities related to reliability, transparency, and respect in interpersonal connections.
As you reflect on the situation and assess your emotional responses, how can you honor your feelings of frustration, disappointment, and the perceived breach of trust while also considering the context, intent, and communication styles of the other person involved? Are there unmet needs, boundaries, or expectations in your relationships that may have been triggered or disregarded in this scenario, prompting feelings of hurt or distrust?
Navigating moments of relational conflict or miscommunication requires open dialogue, active listening, and mutual understanding to address underlying concerns, clarify intentions, and rebuild trust in the relationship. How can you assert your needs, communicate your feelings, and set boundaries around communication, reliability, and respect in a way that honors your emotional well-being and fosters authentic, reciprocal interactions with others?
Recognizing and validating your emotional responses, processing the impact of the situation on your trust and connection with the other person, and exploring avenues for open communication and resolution can pave the way towards deeper understanding, growth, and empowerment in navigating complex relational dynamics. Trust in your capacity to advocate for your needs, assert your boundaries, and cultivate relationships grounded in authenticity, respect, and mutual understanding. If you find yourself grappling with lingering emotions or seeking further guidance on navigating this situation, know that you can always reach out for support and reassurance on your healing journey.
