Ive been under some extra stress, more than usual. I thought I was coping but
I'm scared to tell anyone in my life what's going on. They think I'm getting well.
This is going to sound a bit weird. But last night I woke up and my bedroom. The walls, which are plain. They had wall paper on, the same wall paper that was on my bedroom wall when i was little, where I was abused. I got up walked about. Told myself this will pass. Looked again. It didn't. It lasted all bloody night. I got up and ended up asleep on the sofa.
Then at work I was alone in the office. And I felt someone tap me on the shoulder, I looked and jumped out of my skin, nearly knocked my computer over. There was a woman there, I couldn't see her face, it was covered with her hair, curls grey and black and greasy. Then she was gone. Its like a nightmare I used to have as a child, the same woman. But I felt here there leaning over my shoulder.
Ive been hearing a bit of music here and there, only for a like ten seconds, then it fades.
I'm a bit freaked out. Ive done this before. I thought I was over it. Telling anyone this out loud, I cant. I'm still under mental health services, but I cant tell them this? It would be like going right back to the beginning. I'm hoping it all stops soon. Ive got too much on the line.. I'm a single working mum with a child with health issues. I have no parents no family because of my childhood.
I'm scared to tell anyone in my life what's going on. They think I'm getting well.
This is going to sound a bit weird. But last night I woke up and my bedroom. The walls, which are plain. They had wall paper on, the same wall paper that was on my bedroom wall when i was little, where I was abused. I got up walked about. Told myself this will pass. Looked again. It didn't. It lasted all bloody night. I got up and ended up asleep on the sofa.
Then at work I was alone in the office. And I felt someone tap me on the shoulder, I looked and jumped out of my skin, nearly knocked my computer over. There was a woman there, I couldn't see her face, it was covered with her hair, curls grey and black and greasy. Then she was gone. Its like a nightmare I used to have as a child, the same woman. But I felt here there leaning over my shoulder.
Ive been hearing a bit of music here and there, only for a like ten seconds, then it fades.
I'm a bit freaked out. Ive done this before. I thought I was over it. Telling anyone this out loud, I cant. I'm still under mental health services, but I cant tell them this? It would be like going right back to the beginning. I'm hoping it all stops soon. Ive got too much on the line.. I'm a single working mum with a child with health issues. I have no parents no family because of my childhood.