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Dissociation?

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I've dissociated during flashbacks before (usually if I try to ignore it is when it gets worse) but never anything like I did last week... and I just found out about this all yesterday which is sorta freaking me out...

Last Friday I had some pretty serious stuff going on, things happened that posed an actual threat on my safety so I guess that's what triggered all of this. I'm on Concerta for ADHD every day, Buspar every day for the anxiety and flashbacks, and Xanax only when I REALLY need it when things get really bad with the anxiety. Last Friday was the first time I took the xanax after I had been put on the Buspar, so I'm not sure if maybe that contributed to this at all or not...

Anyway, it turns out I don't really remember ANYTHING from that one day last week. Well, no... I remember a little bit of the morning, but not any details really, and NOTHING from the afternoon on. Apparently though later in the evening I was talking to some people, and told them my name was a different name than it was. I don't remember talking to the people or anything at all really, so I don't know if I actually thought my name was different or if I thought I was a completely different person or if I was consciously aware of it but didn't want them knowing my real name... I don't know what was going on. It's really scary too. I don't think it's ever happened before, but I guess I really can't be sure, given that had one of my friends not finally told me, I wouldn't have known about it this time.
 
Your experience is not unusual: [DLMURL="http://www.ptsdforum.org/thread6123.html"]Dissociation Explained[/DLMURL]

The more you deal with the trauma and your triggers so that you are less afraid of them, the less you will rely on dissociation. It's simply a way of coping with stress, and the challenge now is to learn new ways.
 
Have you learned ways to bring yourself back to reality...like look for 5 yellow things in the room, then 4 red things, then 3 blue things, 3 red things etc. This helps to bring us back to reality....works for me sometimes but sometimes not but it doesn't hurt too try.

Good luck in your healing journey.
 
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