Trying to paint a picture of it. So, some backdrop of anxiety lingers, even if you're used to it. You may be aware you are usually not satisfyingly grounded in immediate occurrences. Here's the thread focus: there are times you experience an abrupt degeneration/decline in self that mentally moves some part of you elsewhere; like your typical face/form for a stuation gets swapped for an ill-suited or generally disoriented one. It can happen randomly in a moment. Sometimes it feels like becoming too aware of space/time, then suddenly you're not detecting stimuli the same anymore. You were predictable before this but now you're like a different person in a foreign body, even if you recognize yourself. It can last for days or weeks maybe. Not like I keep count. Anytime following this you have a feeling or emotion that 'feels wrong' like it has become dysfunctional yet you know you've dealt with the feelings and emotions fine at points before. Maybe they don't feel like your own and you burn out trying to retitle them as yours. Makes getting up to do things overly taxing because you're confused how to apply motivations to yourself. I don't know. Sound familiar? It doesn't seem like depersonalization or derealization.