some of this is self inflicted some isnt, im gonna start with the personal stuff. Ive been abused sexually as a child by a sibling but he was young to so thats just a write off for me kids doing stupid things not knowing the effects of there actions, i still speak to him alot and love him. In my adult life i was attacked in my home by someone i let stay in my home, he tied me up then sexually assaulted me, then he beat me up. Now for the self inflicted stuff. In the early 2000s to 2010s people used to show and talk about gore videos, in the future i looked at them myself, really noticing the effects of seeing these things now. Somethings caused me to have serious mental problems throughout my life, ive been sectioned twice, was diagnosed a paranoid schizophrenic, had phsycosis and diagnosed autistic. Had really bad mental problems. I keep having flashbacks and nightmares about the things ive seen or been through. Also worth mentioning from a young age i witnessed domestic violence at age 5 ish and lived in womens refuges. Now i keep off social media at request of my gp. So do you think i have ptsd ? Im speaking to my key worker tomorrow. I just want things to get better i dont wanna feel unsafe all the time.