I seem to experience at least depersonalization. I've read that it can originate from even emotional abuse. I vaguely remember my family being foul. They often were, I just don't recall a formative trauma, or much of anything from childhood. I apologize for asking anyone to relive anything. I feel I'm making it up because I have no coherent timeline to extract from. Absolutely nothing feels consistent between self, activity or remembering. Can one simply not remember ptsd trauma material and be affected so much on the daily? I don't function like [neurotypical?] people around me. It's like I'm preadolescent or low iq, but I feel myself deep down being neither nor. However, I "look fine," so people draw those conclusions anyway. Kinda venting. Thanks