dazednconfused
Confident
I just feel so much pain now that my husband has left me and my child and I just don't understand how my husband can be mean and hateful to me now when I had the sweetest husband that loved me and my child and was always there for us and now tonight I miss him so much and would love to call him and just tell him that, but I can't and that really is just crappy.
How do you guys function from day-to-day without just completely falling apart? I try so hard not to think about him and worry about him and I just cannot do it. I love him so much. It is like a part of me has been ripped out.
It is like he has died, only he is really still there, I just can't go to him and get a hug anymore or even talk to him. I just feel so alone and scared and hurt and I just cry and tonight he talked to my son on the phone and my son wants me to wear a disguise now, so I can sneak in o BB games if my husband takes him, because his daddy will not go if I am there. My child is 9 years old and wants his daddy there so bad he wants me to sneak in, in a disguise, how horrible is that for a 9-year-old to think something like that up.
I just don't know how to handle all of this. I feel like I am just falling apart. I just want this nightmare to end....
Why does it have to be this way? Why can he just not get better.... What did I do that was so horrible I drove him away? I tried to be a good and loving wife to him and for the last 3 months, nothing I did or said or anything was good enough. I just feel so inadequate and ugly or something for my husband to leave me overnight like that.
I just wondered if any of you have went through these feelings......:dontknow:
How do you guys function from day-to-day without just completely falling apart? I try so hard not to think about him and worry about him and I just cannot do it. I love him so much. It is like a part of me has been ripped out.
It is like he has died, only he is really still there, I just can't go to him and get a hug anymore or even talk to him. I just feel so alone and scared and hurt and I just cry and tonight he talked to my son on the phone and my son wants me to wear a disguise now, so I can sneak in o BB games if my husband takes him, because his daddy will not go if I am there. My child is 9 years old and wants his daddy there so bad he wants me to sneak in, in a disguise, how horrible is that for a 9-year-old to think something like that up.
I just don't know how to handle all of this. I feel like I am just falling apart. I just want this nightmare to end....
Why does it have to be this way? Why can he just not get better.... What did I do that was so horrible I drove him away? I tried to be a good and loving wife to him and for the last 3 months, nothing I did or said or anything was good enough. I just feel so inadequate and ugly or something for my husband to leave me overnight like that.
I just wondered if any of you have went through these feelings......:dontknow: