Thanks all for your replies...!
Most psychiatrists are purely there for med-management and work best as part of a “team”. (Therapist+Psychiatrist+Medical). So you do all of your therapy with your therapist, and then they loop in your psychiatrist, so you almost never spend more than 5-15 minutes with your shrink, as they touch base with you on your meds.
Yeah, this is basically the set up where I live too...
My old pdoc was just *amazing* tho... He was an incredible human being who just went above and beyond... He's unreplaceable... Sigh...
I get that this young whipper-snapper replacement pdoc is officially ticking the boxes of what he's "supposed to do" I guess... It's just he's soooo heavy on the pill-pushing and soooo light on the listening... I feel like it's almost irrelevant, what I say... like I could walk in there either saying "I'm having trouble sleeping" or "I think I'm a zebra" and he'd basically suggest a med, possibly the same med in each case...? It sort of feels like I go to see him (and it's a 1.5 hour drive each way, and then I see him and we play "medication chess" for 10 minutes and then I drive home again for 1.5 hours... Sigh...
Like there's not even any time to get into the details... And it feels like he thinks the details are irrelevant anyway... It's like his reasoning is: if you're unwell enough to be seeing a pdoc, then you should be taking meds... And then based on how your mood "seems" to him, he's gonna try ABC medication as opposed to XYZ medication.
I'm not even sure how much I "believe" in psych meds these days anymore, either... I mean, there's soooo much doubt about whether the whole "serotonin hypothesis" is even like 1 % true or not... And when people have done meta-studies of the pharmacalogical studies, then often anti-depressants have basically no efficacy greater than a placebo... Many people question whether it takes "about 6 weeks" for many anti-depressants to kick in is because that's how long many people take on average to get out of a depressive slump... Basically the same thing as that adage "the flu takes a week to go away without meds and 7 days with meds".
I mean, I know there are *some* psych meds that are obviously effective - tho even with those, when you read up on the mode of action, basically scientists and Dr's don't have a *clue* how they work or why they work... Ugh...
I'm 47 now and have taken psych meds on and off since my early 20s... And on the whole I literally could not tell you whether any of the approx. 10 or 12 anti-depressants I've ever tried has worked AT ALL... I've certainly never felt an effect where I thought "Ooh, this medication is helping me".
The only psych med I've found genuinely helpful has been benzos... I've taken them verrrrrrrrrrrrrry carefully as to make sure I never, ever get dependant on them. But in bad panic attacks or bad bouts of suicidalness, they've been the only thing that's helped and have certainly saved my life and my sanity countless times.
Other than that, I'm finding my Ketamine treatment helpful.
But all other psych meds? I would say have caused way more side-effects than that they've ever done any good.
I've taken them anyway, in times when I was desperate... Hoping that they would help... Hoping that what the Dr's said might be right...
But I'm not convinced that any med has ever "changed my brain chemistry" in any helpful way, other than benzos and Ketamine.
I guess my growing scepticism about psych meds and this young pdoc's mantra of "meds, meds, meds..." is just not harmonising very well right now...
I think I'm going to cut down my appt's to once per quarter...
There are occasionally other things he's helpful with... Where I live, you often need a pdoc's "stamp of approval" for stuff, like applying for therapy coverage from health insurance and similar stuff like that. So I guess I have to accept that he's helpful/ useful in that regard, and accept that I'm never going to get an even half-way decent conversation out of him regarding any psych issues, and just ignore the pill-pushing as best I can. With the latest med he's prescribed me, I'm just going to get the prescription filled and shove the med in a cupboard. I'm just not up to fighting him about the meds and this seems like the path of least resistance right now.
Maybe I'll try and find out if there's ***any*** possible way of seeing my old pdoc as an outpatient or a paying as a private patient to see him, or what...