Not sure if this is a question or just a need to communicate in order to feel connected to others because this is something I at times deeply deny or suppress. I do understand if this is not making sense, because I don’t either and my ability to think and process coherently is vanished (Hope it returns soon).
My mother is dealing with her cancer Diagnosis (Ovarian cancer early stage), she tried one cycle of Chemotherapy and is refusing to continue due to various reasons: Emotional overload, paranoia and less because of sideaffects.
My stepfather also comes into the scene with whom I’ve lived until 2002, he has Bi-polar and used to be a very domineering person when he was struggling with manic depression. I’ve learned to preserve my boundaries with him but this whole situation comes with a huge wave of memories and Grief which is hard to digest right now.
It’s hard and painful, I don’t like saying this, because I usually have this idealized version of „strong and toughness“..
But sometimes the heart is just heavy.
My mother is dealing with her cancer Diagnosis (Ovarian cancer early stage), she tried one cycle of Chemotherapy and is refusing to continue due to various reasons: Emotional overload, paranoia and less because of sideaffects.
My stepfather also comes into the scene with whom I’ve lived until 2002, he has Bi-polar and used to be a very domineering person when he was struggling with manic depression. I’ve learned to preserve my boundaries with him but this whole situation comes with a huge wave of memories and Grief which is hard to digest right now.
It’s hard and painful, I don’t like saying this, because I usually have this idealized version of „strong and toughness“..
But sometimes the heart is just heavy.