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I have recurring dreams that I am back in the city / locations I was in when trauma took place. Almost every night for the past few months. Some nights it's not necessarily bad, just roaming the streets. Some nights are worse, and I dream of fighting off rapists/people trying to assault me, or see murderers or someone torturing someone else.
I had recurring nightmares/flashbacks most intensely the first year after I left the traumatic environment. It's been 4 years and I've seen a lot of improvement overall, but in the past few months it seems to have come back every night. I bet my SSRI medication, which can make some crazy vivid dreams, has an impact on this.
But the underlying issue that is a big factor is that I have been really stressed out and having a lot more triggers and anxiety/panic attacks in the last 6-7 months.
Sometimes I take a prescribed benzo before bed to help me. But I am running low on those and want to try to save them for when I'm really triggered.
I find it hard to let myself go to sleep. It feels vulnerable and I tend to just distract myself until I am about to pass out.
I want to hear what helps other people. Just please dont say melatonin lol
I had recurring nightmares/flashbacks most intensely the first year after I left the traumatic environment. It's been 4 years and I've seen a lot of improvement overall, but in the past few months it seems to have come back every night. I bet my SSRI medication, which can make some crazy vivid dreams, has an impact on this.
But the underlying issue that is a big factor is that I have been really stressed out and having a lot more triggers and anxiety/panic attacks in the last 6-7 months.
Sometimes I take a prescribed benzo before bed to help me. But I am running low on those and want to try to save them for when I'm really triggered.
I find it hard to let myself go to sleep. It feels vulnerable and I tend to just distract myself until I am about to pass out.
I want to hear what helps other people. Just please dont say melatonin lol