Hey guys, so I've seen a few threads similar to what I'll be posting but I don't know. So I'm an ex amphetamine addict, I was very heavily addicted, I was also on antidepressants, drinking, taking pain meds(codeine, lean, etc.). At the beginning of my addiction I was in a relationship with a suicidal girlfriend(She'd tried to kill herself twice but failed) who I'd talked down from the edge more than once, then shit happened and we broke up, she started cutting herself again, nearly killed herself again. That's when my addiction really began, I overdosed twice. when I got clean I had severe hallucinations, panic attacks, extreme paranoia ,etc. most symptoms of the withdrawal lasted months afterward. Anyways, pretty much ever since I got clean I've been having very very vivid flashbacks and nightmares that are almost always about the near death experiences I've had on drugs and my ex who I feel I drove to the edge. I've woken up in the middle of the night yelling and shit, I've barely been able to get 2-3 hours of sleep a night, I've lost alot of weight, withdrawn from regular life(confining myself to my house mainly). I have random episodes of complete hopelessness and I've been to a few different therapists who never tell me what's wrong with me. I'm wondering if it's possible I have PTSD from this stuff but don't want to go to yet another doctor just to have them not say anything.