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Other Drugs and poisoning

Sietz

MyPTSD Pro
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Hi all.

One of the issues I've been facing was how much responsibility I actually had in drug consumption.

I never remember all the times I said no, and was persuaded to, until I eventually gave up saying no.

This has been hard because I think this is equivalent to poisoning. The things I've been through with drugs and the people involved kind of makes me wonder.

It may be paranoia. I've searched online and it seems like paranoia.

I'm having real time resting and my head hurts.
 
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Hi all.

One of the issues I've been facing was how much responsibility I actually had in drug consumption.

I never remember all the times I said no, and was persuaded to, until I eventually gave up saying no.

This has been hard because I think this is equivalent to poisoning. The things I've been through with drugs and the people involved kind of makes me wonder.

It may be paranoia. I've searched online and it seems like paranoia.

I'm having real time resting and my head hurts.
I can relate to this @Sietz. And it reeeeeeaaaaallllly sux.

Done, heaps, to me, too.

By the end, I was, so, so, terribly ill.

So I don't think paranoia. I think "control" I think "pacification" I think zero care and predation, and in my experience, one of my "drugger rapists" tried to strangle me after, so, obs, wanted me dead.

Luckily there were witnesses, so he couldn't go all the way.

And the other, long-term "drugger-abuser-sexual enslaver" admitted to me, after I left that he resented that I left instead of died.

So poisoning? Not so far fetched. At least, if we had died, the evidence of the rapist-sadistic-control-abuse dies with us.

Sorry, I don't know if this helps? Coz it's not positive, at all. But, I just wanted to let you know ... I feel ya coz ...been there. Frickin psychopaths.

:hug: @Sietz, respect and empathy, from mums.
 

Sietz

MyPTSD Pro
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Thank you Ronin. I know you are right. It's easy to look at other situations and how it played out, given the sense for fairness and justice I think. Hard to fit the mind in the idea that a choice sometimes is not really a choice at all.
 
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