QuirkyTofurkey
Confident
I'm not sure if this question goes here, or if I'm making any sense - but does anyone else struggle with repeatedly doing the same "avoidance" activity over and over again in order to have a non-stop soothing feeling? I have a tendency to watch the same "feel good" movie or even listen to the same "feel good" book over and over on loop while carrying out my daily activities. Ever since starting EMDR, this has escalated to a point where I can barely even shower or have a meal alone without something playing on loop in my headphones. It's even starting to affect my ability to do my EMDR homework, because my therapist asked me to sit in silence and let myself recognize how I'm physically feeling, etc. But it's like...something in me pushes SO HARD against that and I have a mini-panic moment whenever I'm sitting in silence. And it's almost like I *cant* do that.
Can anyone else relate? If so, have there been ways you eased yourself into sitting in silence with yourself? Or even eased yourself away from these avoidance activities? I know what I do helps me get through the day, but I'm also seeing how harmful it is for my long-term healing journey. Any advice or perspective would be appreciated!
Can anyone else relate? If so, have there been ways you eased yourself into sitting in silence with yourself? Or even eased yourself away from these avoidance activities? I know what I do helps me get through the day, but I'm also seeing how harmful it is for my long-term healing journey. Any advice or perspective would be appreciated!