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Today I got in an argument with my mom. She treats me terribly, the stress got to me, so I repeated to her that I was sexually abused by my former step dad when I was 3. The first time I told her about the abuse I was 18, and the first time I told her who did it was about a year ago. (I’m 23 now) She’s in denial and screamed that I’m a liar, and I kept having to explain to her that it did happen. She doesn’t want to believe me because she was married to him since I was 3 until a few years ago. Part of me doesn’t believe it because I don’t have the actual memories, and I feel so stupid and embarrassed after I tell her. I never told her or anyone details. There are some things I don’t want to say. I just have my reasons why I know it happened. Also the fact that I’ve been getting “body memories” more and more the past few years. I feel so disgusted and feel it happening to me. The abuse happened one more time when I was around 5. I don’t have the memory, but I remember how terrible I felt after. I have no proof it was him, and part of me is in denial, so that’s why I feel stupid for telling her. But I have reasons why I’m 90% sure it was him. I just wanted to let all of this out. If anyone has any advice on how I can feel less embarrassed for telling her or just any advice about this in general, I would appreciate it. I can’t see a therapist at the moment and have no one else to talk to about this