Emdr and scared about it

[recoveringfromptsd]

I am soon going to be starting the actual EMDR part of the EMDR protocol, in the preparation phase now, already the protocol has brought some things out, and I know that once I am actually doing the EMDR that its going to be like reliving the trauma all over again just so I can reprocess it, and deal with the cognitive distortions.

This really scares me, I am not sure if that's because it's something my brain does not want to deal with, or because I am scared of the trauma itself.

Has anyone else had EMDR experiences that can related to this, I don't know what to expect, how long it will take to get over it. I am not even sure if I even will. What kind of success rate exists for dealing with the cognitive distortions.

Despite being scared I have no choice but to follow this path, it's the only possible way to address my situational hypervigilance which makes me miserable, all my T's know that if I can't address that I will end up committing suicide. So this has to work for me. If it does not the chances of being committed are almost certain as my T's will certainly work to prevent what they know I will do, as I have done in the past.

Right now I am doing very well, better than in the past, but that's because I am seeing things with EMDR that give me some hope that my situational hypervigilance can dealt with.

It would be help to have feedback that can guide me as to what to expect, how much to expect, how long, and what to beware of, and what to embrace.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I was terrified before I did the EMDR and I have multiple traumas. But i was ready for it because it has changed my life for the better. It did take me back to the traumas but the memories no longer haunt me nor torment me anymore,I would say the experience is different for everyone and if you are ready for it, you should be able to do it. But if you are not ready for it, it may not be for you at this time.

With anything like this it is a risk that you take and I say you are worth fighting for, what have you got to lose? Do the research on it and do it with a therapist you fully trust and wait and see if it is working for you. The memories are no longer a problem for me when they still come up occasionally. I wish you the very best, but I so understand being so afraid of it. Just make yourself as safe as you can during the therapy. Take breaks if it gets to be too much and beware there is an after affect from the treatments. This is my experience with it.