BigLittle
Silver Member
Hi,
Yesterday I did an online EMDR session on anger.
First question from my psychologist was: 'Where does your anger come from?'
My anger is almost always there. About the emotional abuse, sexual abuse, neglect, abandonment, physical abuse, relentless bullying on a daily basis for more than a decade, deranged narcissistic parents who were both doctors. Ex wife who brought out the worst in me. Other exes who cheated on me. So called best Friends who just tool advantage of me.
The ex from my current girlfriend who is a pedophile.
My father's Family who condoned his actions as pedophile, domestic abuse, attempted murders, beatings, cheatings, narcissistic mindgames and brainwashing, alcoholism, rage,...
My mother who put the blame on me for all failure in her life starting with my conception which was my father raping her, because she did not want a child. Being emotional and sexual abused by my mother from 3 to 14 years old. Alcoholism, shooting up morfine every day for 35 years, dozens of suicide attempts, making me her lover and partner instead of a child and son, keeping me locked in a golden cage for decades, brainwashing for decades, isolating me for decades, trying to crash the car with me in it in numerous occasions, keeping me sick, giving me meds that I did not need, teaching me at 7 years old how you inject morfine and this in her arm, destroying every relationship that was good for me, on the daily telling me that the was gonna kill herself, ..
And there is still more shit that is coming out of the fog in my mind that I had blocked and burried.
I am pissed off and will not be f*cked with again.
Does anybody have some tips or feedback how to deal with anger, rage, explosive reactions?
Thanks
Yesterday I did an online EMDR session on anger.
First question from my psychologist was: 'Where does your anger come from?'
My anger is almost always there. About the emotional abuse, sexual abuse, neglect, abandonment, physical abuse, relentless bullying on a daily basis for more than a decade, deranged narcissistic parents who were both doctors. Ex wife who brought out the worst in me. Other exes who cheated on me. So called best Friends who just tool advantage of me.
The ex from my current girlfriend who is a pedophile.
My father's Family who condoned his actions as pedophile, domestic abuse, attempted murders, beatings, cheatings, narcissistic mindgames and brainwashing, alcoholism, rage,...
My mother who put the blame on me for all failure in her life starting with my conception which was my father raping her, because she did not want a child. Being emotional and sexual abused by my mother from 3 to 14 years old. Alcoholism, shooting up morfine every day for 35 years, dozens of suicide attempts, making me her lover and partner instead of a child and son, keeping me locked in a golden cage for decades, brainwashing for decades, isolating me for decades, trying to crash the car with me in it in numerous occasions, keeping me sick, giving me meds that I did not need, teaching me at 7 years old how you inject morfine and this in her arm, destroying every relationship that was good for me, on the daily telling me that the was gonna kill herself, ..
And there is still more shit that is coming out of the fog in my mind that I had blocked and burried.
I am pissed off and will not be f*cked with again.
Does anybody have some tips or feedback how to deal with anger, rage, explosive reactions?
Thanks