BigLittle
Confident
Hi,
Tomorrow we have an EMDR session planned about my mother and her masturbating next to me from 10 to 14 years old while obligating me to sleep in her bedroom in the twinbed, when I was already acustomed to sleeping alone from early age when my abusive, violent, narcissistic, alcoholic, deranged father had full custody of me.
This has been postponed by me because of my fear how I will react to this.
While good memories are rising above the fog, so are those of the deepest corners of my Pandora's box.
Hopefully this is the last disgusting thing for EMDR...
Helas ... my body and nightly flashbacks tell a different story.
I am getting tired of this bullshit
Tomorrow we have an EMDR session planned about my mother and her masturbating next to me from 10 to 14 years old while obligating me to sleep in her bedroom in the twinbed, when I was already acustomed to sleeping alone from early age when my abusive, violent, narcissistic, alcoholic, deranged father had full custody of me.
This has been postponed by me because of my fear how I will react to this.
While good memories are rising above the fog, so are those of the deepest corners of my Pandora's box.
Hopefully this is the last disgusting thing for EMDR...
Helas ... my body and nightly flashbacks tell a different story.
I am getting tired of this bullshit