Emdr/therapy

[Snowflake]

Today in the middle of EMDR I broke down. I don't know why or what happened but it was the most awful, embarrassing thing to happened. I repeatedly said "I hate myself and "just shoot me."

 

[Deleted member 37474]

Today in the middle of EMDR I broke down. I don't know why or what happened but it was the most awful...

I know this feeling. I think that I went up to a 9. I was really embarrassed having to explain stuff that led up to where I was in my head since she didn't know all the sorted details. But I needed her help in what to do next. My warped mind was wondering about "earning love" and my brain sorted out the answer that it wasn't about love. But my God. The stuff I said in between sets to my T still embarrasses me despite the answer being so profound and needed for my recovery.

 

[Brother b]

Never give up.

I think that is a normal response when you start digging around the deep emotions. It has happened to me twice in the 6 sessions I've had. What has helped me is to try to just accept the feelings as they are, you don't always have to understand why you break down...your body is just reacting to you poking around those emotional times.

Don't give up, I know thoughts like that can be consuming...but always hold on to hope, even if it is just by a thread at times...know that if you keep working on it, working through it, and keep looking for the solutions you will succeed. I've seen horrible horrible PTSD symptoms healed with the right therapy (EMDR)...I'm not a therapist just someone who has gone through some shit like many others.

That's my two cents, hold, hang, claw on to hope If you need to. Keep working at it and you WILL get better. I am on your side, I believe in you

 

[Snowflake]

Never give up.

I think that is a normal response when you start digging around the deep emotions. It has happened...

Thanks

 

[Freida]

Today in the middle of EMDR I broke down. I don't know why or what happened but it was the most awful...

My t is patiently awaiting the day I can finally do that. She says it's a good thing because it releases stuck points and helps speed up the process. And yep...she also told me a lot of people get embarrassed by what they say when it happens ...then reminds me (once again) that releasing emotions/memories is hard but beneficial and there is no shame in letting them out. So maybe this will turn out to be a good thing for you...? Could you have turned a corner in your treatment?

 

[Snowflake]

My t is patiently awaiting the day I can finally do that. She says it's a good thing because it release...

Possibly.

 

[I_Am_Titanium]

I've been doing EMDR for over two years now. I agree with what everyone has said here. It can be really tough at times but I think it's worth it in that you can finally release the emotions you've stored up for years. I've learned to just go with what comes up in my sessions no matter how embarrassing it seems and I'm glad I did. You're not alone in this. I was skeptical with EMDR at first but am a firm believer that it works. It can be a lot of hard work but I believe it's worth it to get "unstuck". At first it took me several sessions to finally get to an "ah ha" moment and actually work through it (wasn't easy) and I felt incredibly lighter and stronger after it. It can take time and patience. Hang in there.