Diagnosis: CPTSD in 2015
Began therapy in 2009 when I landed in a psychosomatic Clinic and then in Psychiatric ward. I came to this country in my teens, went to different schools and lived in two boarding schools and travelled a lot as a kid. I learned the language here and went to school.
Began with Ego state Therapy in 2015 and after a 3 year Therapy I feel I am somewhat stable. I married and I Do a 35 hr Job since a couple of years. During these 5 years I havent been sick for more than 4 weeks... again. Sick? Do something... get healthy... Do sports/ Do Do. This comes from my military style upbringing, its positive and negative at the same time. My caregivers represented " Get hard work harder". I could see this as a form of resellience but its also something which keeps me from Doing internal work.
I still struggle with emotional regulation. My T has given me some skills like the visualization of the inner parts, standing around a bonfire with Helper parts. I never call my T or email her(This is nothing to be proud about but I always feel that I must make it alone) From the very beginning I was someone who was handling things in a very pragmatic style. If there is a problem.. Do something about it. My T told me that even though I always function apparently well, I Dont Do enough work to process my Trauma.
What has helped YOU to release emotions? Releasing, acknowleding and still being able to come back to the presence?
Thanks
Began therapy in 2009 when I landed in a psychosomatic Clinic and then in Psychiatric ward. I came to this country in my teens, went to different schools and lived in two boarding schools and travelled a lot as a kid. I learned the language here and went to school.
Began with Ego state Therapy in 2015 and after a 3 year Therapy I feel I am somewhat stable. I married and I Do a 35 hr Job since a couple of years. During these 5 years I havent been sick for more than 4 weeks... again. Sick? Do something... get healthy... Do sports/ Do Do. This comes from my military style upbringing, its positive and negative at the same time. My caregivers represented " Get hard work harder". I could see this as a form of resellience but its also something which keeps me from Doing internal work.
I still struggle with emotional regulation. My T has given me some skills like the visualization of the inner parts, standing around a bonfire with Helper parts. I never call my T or email her(This is nothing to be proud about but I always feel that I must make it alone) From the very beginning I was someone who was handling things in a very pragmatic style. If there is a problem.. Do something about it. My T told me that even though I always function apparently well, I Dont Do enough work to process my Trauma.
What has helped YOU to release emotions? Releasing, acknowleding and still being able to come back to the presence?
Thanks
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