I have been struggling my entire life with the abuse from my childhood (you can read my posts here for details) but about 4 years ago I slipped into a deep dark depression and only emerged after about 6 months of therapy. However after the therapy ended I did what I always do, I buried my feelings and moved on.
Unfortunately, here I am 4 years later and I have started having emotional flashbacks and start feeling like I am about to cry (about to since I am unable to actually cry) when watching TV particularly stories of young children being either treated poorly or just loved. I realize that my emotions are rising to the surface and am really scared about slipping back into depression.
I have an appointment with a new therapist (mine retired 3 years ago) in a couple of weeks and hope that will help. I have found that for the past 6 months or so I have totally lost my sexual desire which has been a very important part of my life with my wife and am very worried about the long term effect. Even though my wife and I have a great relationship I find myself unable to discus this issue and all that it encompasses because I am scared to release my emotions for fear of having an uncontrollable breakdown that will ruin my life, my fault again :-(
Unfortunately, here I am 4 years later and I have started having emotional flashbacks and start feeling like I am about to cry (about to since I am unable to actually cry) when watching TV particularly stories of young children being either treated poorly or just loved. I realize that my emotions are rising to the surface and am really scared about slipping back into depression.
I have an appointment with a new therapist (mine retired 3 years ago) in a couple of weeks and hope that will help. I have found that for the past 6 months or so I have totally lost my sexual desire which has been a very important part of my life with my wife and am very worried about the long term effect. Even though my wife and I have a great relationship I find myself unable to discus this issue and all that it encompasses because I am scared to release my emotions for fear of having an uncontrollable breakdown that will ruin my life, my fault again :-(